My ramblings as a lover of adventure, all things crafty,art, life, and mostly bacon....

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I read this over and over...

Well, not over and over and over but I definitely go back and read my "other blog" from time to time.

It reminds me where I was and how far I have come and the struggle to get here. It reminds me that because I am human I feel pain and that is natural.

And that because I am human, I can bend and adapt to the life that I have instead of the life that I thought I was going to have.

And that because I am human, I will cry, I will feel sad, I will feel defeated but I don't have to be any of those things.

So I have been to 4 Brave Girl Camps and spent a month of my life in the last 8 months in Idaho with amazing groups of women. And because I am human, I will love them, I will miss them, and I will cherish them, and I will never never forget them.

This year was the way it was because of my experiences past present and future I loved them all!

my first camp was with these ladies right here and I learned just how much women could lift eachother up.







in the end when we had to say goodbye it was bittersweet. we had made so much progress but were all excited to go home and put what we had learned into effect




















these amazing women were at the last camp I went to. I hate that I can't post every picture on here of every girl I met at camp. I HATE. that it is because of time and lack of it that I am not able to tell you about each and every one of them... they are all worth a story...

but I LOVE that the reason I have no time is because my life is so full and that it is full of getting to do charity work every single day.

The women on this pier were at the 3rd camp I went to.... It was a truly special experience... because....








I got to spend it with one of the most amazing women I have ever known. Someone that I am lucky to call my friend and my partner in Charity Wings. Someone that I have the utmost respect for and someone who I strive to be like every day.











these women were at the last camp I was at and I am soooooo in love with all of them! Participants, staff, it was just a freaking love fest! These women are going to be the light when I am in the dark. I know it.















saying good bye is never easy. But we know we will see eachother again.












I met such amazing women at this camp. young, old, all shapes, sizes, colors.. I can't imagine another place on earth where you can do this...






































I can fly now.....







I can find Peace... and give it.....















I can smile....
Its been a year.
I can move forward.
I dont know where I am going
I dont know who I am
I dont know how, when, or why...
Im scared, Im scarred, and Im lonely, but at least I can fly.


This post dedicated to the amazing people I have met in the last year, some at camp, some on line, and some that just find me somehow. and mostly to Melody, Kathy and Grandma who made one month of my life this past year soooo good.

9 comments:

Lisa said...

You are loved, you are beautiful, you are brave and you are such a ray of sunshine in this world!
xoxo!

melody ross said...

love you soooooooo much!!! Life is gonna get better and better and better for you!!!!!!!!!! Keep up all that you are doing! xoxoox

BonnieRose said...

Ohhh Elena.. LOVE THIS POST! We as human beings are all scarred in some way, aren't we?? It's the special ppl and experiences we hold dear that keep us strong and moving towards THE LIGHT. It was my first time meeting you a few weeks ago and I have to say.. you were one of those shining lights for me. LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU XOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXXO I hope to see you again soon.. dear Elena. You are so cherished and loved by me here in ND. xoxoox

Christa Krais said...

"You are beautiful and I'll tell you everyday." I love you, Princess Elena. You keep me smilin'.

dawn blackstead said...

I love this post Elena. You have had a very busy year but you've become some a brave, more beautiful princess. It was such a wonderful experience going to BGC and I'm lucky I was at your first camp with you and can see how much you've grown this past year.
Love you girl!

Kelly Lish said...

Elena, you are such an amazing woman. I'm so proud to call you my friend-I'm so looking forward to spending time with you in December! I look at you and I see this incredibly brave, giving, loving, strong woman-flying, no soaring, and making the world a better place-I love you little angel! Keep flying and spreading your love!
XO

{connie} said...

elena you are BRAVE!! look at where your foot steps were. look at the path that is before you. you are going to the light with a lighter load. your burdens are lighter and your smile is brighter!!! you are loved. thanks for sharing your time and talent with me. you can do it..."she did it anyways". {{hugs}}

Debbie McIntyre said...

such a beautiful post. thank you

MODERN Prairie Girl said...

Words can't express how grateful I am that we've met, my sweet princess partner in crime.

You are truly special and I do believe a friend for life :)
oxoxoxoxoxo
Lara