I had planned to be pregnant before the end of 2016. I just wanted to either know I am having a baby, or start the slow decent into the inevitable depression before I pulled myself up to try again. However, it didn't work out and now I can't do the embryo transfer till first week of Feb 2017. This is literally torture.
I've been trying for weeks to blog. I hate when I get out of the habit. I spend so much time thinking and realizing that I need to write and then when I sit down, I can't get the words to flow. Tonight I am determined.
There is something about planning for a baby, that may or may not come, that is surreal and unique. I have finally resigned myself to the fact that I am in for a lot of changes. Not just because of the baby. Not the obvious ones. More because I am finally ready to accept what I have said a to so many people.
The change is coming and I am looking forward to what the next part of this life has to offer.
Ive raised about 1/2 of the $30,000+ I need to pursue this dream.
Wishing the same for all of my friends and family in 2017. Thank you for reading.
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