So that even though my mind tells me lots of people love me, I feel completely alone because I don't love myself.
In my heart I have such doubt.
Today I am leaving on a spiritual journey. One that I set an intention for at Brave Girls Symposium. I am going to a retreat where no one knows me, well, other than what they may have read here :) I am going to walk through those doors at 4 pm today and be Elena. Just Elena. I am going to ground myself on my path to have a baby. My phone and computer will be off. I am going to disconnect from this anxiety filled place that I am living in and look for me.
I don't know what will happen and admittedly I am very nervous. I know I am holding my heart in my own hands and fixing it is all on me. So I am going to try.
See you on the other side.